Wednesday (12.31.08) - Exodus 4:1-17, What job has God recently asked you to do?

Well I know this isn't recent but I think it would be being a leader at Cameron House (yup this little leadership experience again). I really felt like I wasn't going to make it because I gave short answers during the interview heard the other people's answers (interviews in groups) and they were soo much better than mine and most of them had more experience than me in leading, I didn't really have any when I went there. I was surprised that I got an email that told me that I was going to be a youth leader.

I know this doesn't sound like a job but I just thought of this now. I think one of them was choosing between dropping Dragon Boat, or not go to Church. My mom gave me those two choices. It was soo hard for me, I really couldn't choose between those two things where I love to go to and what I love to do. I still miss the water(even though it's murky) and how it feels to paddle, even though the people there are nice and caring, but they did talk about Christians in a bad way, and I felt like I should say something, and I think dropping Dragon Boat actually meant I am running away from the situtation, but I didn't want to stop going to Church, that meant I can't get to know God as well in a group, I didn't want to do it alone, I know I can go to Michelle's house and have some Bible Studies with her if she wanted but I like going to fellowship. So I ended up quitting Dragon Boat, I worked so hard to get on the team too, and I quit my cello lessons; free lessons too I was on a scholarship-for a club (Dragon Boat is not a sport, weird...). Well it did take me awhile to decide, and I ended telling Samantha who is one of the officers in the club, and was my partner when I joined again. She was sad to see me go, and I was sad to leave too. Well I just felt that was like a job for me because it was like a test on seeing how strong my faith in God is, and how much I trust in Him. I still think God maybe was telling me to stay on the Dragon Boat team to have time to talk to them about what they said, instead of running away from it, but I knew that I still run into them at school, and maybe I can talk to them when I have the time. But fellowship to me is more important than any club that I don't want to go away from, or any sport. And the song My Wish by Rascal Flatts helped me through my choice, the lyrics helped a lot.

the bold is the one that stood out to me

verse 1
I hope the days come easy and the moments pass slow,
And each road leads you where you wanna go,
And if you're faced with a choice, and you have to choose,
I hope you choose the one that means the most to you.
And if one door opens to another door closed,
I hope you keep on walkin' till you find the window,
If it's cold outside, show the world the warmth of your smile.
But more than anything, more than anything...

chorus
My wish, for you, is that this life becomes all that you want it to,
Your dreams stay big, your worries stay small,
You never need to carry more than you can hold,
And while you're out there getting where you're getting to,
I hope you know somebody loves you, and wants the same things too,
Yeah, this, is my wish.

verse 2
I hope you never look back, but you never forget,
All the ones who love you, in the place you left,
I hope you always forgive, and you never regret,
And you help somebody every chance you get,
Oh, you find God's grace, in every mistake,
And always give more than you take.
But more than anything, yeah, more than anything...

go back to Chorus (repeat twice)

Bridge
This is my wish (my wish, for you)
I hope you know somebody loves you (my wish, for you).
May all your dreams stay big (my wish, for you).