Wednesday, 1/14/09, Day 63 - Reflection

Hmm... I think that God showed me that He loves me by bringing me to Cumberland, introducing me to all you wonderful who are in my life now. It's great and I felt even more loved than I did alone with my parents, and family, and friends of course. And joining softball too, that was a lot of fun and I am looking forward to next year and I hope that school won't interfere with softball, and I didn't think I would acutally like softball at all but I ended up liking it because of the team spirit we have and the support for each other that we have, that's what caught my attention, and if I joined the school team I don't think I'll like it as much as I do now. And I think one of the reasons why I dropped Dragon Boat (no not because of what my mom told me to do) was that the people there are really uh... how should I put it? um... well not all of them but some of them, hm... well prejudice against people who believe in God, and I was RIGHT next to them when they were talking about the stereotypes of Christians, and I was just frustarted on the inside that I didn't want to show it to them, because I didn't know half of them, but most of them are really caring and they do show support to the teammates. I remember being on my "offside" (the left, yes I paddle right) and I kept splashing this poor experienced guy in front of me I felt soo bad, and he just kept saying it was okay, and it was getting dark and cold too, so I felt even worse... wahh... but I hope he didn't catch a cold that day. Anyways I think God told me that I should leave the team or that I should stay, I wasn't sure but I felt the message was stronger in leaving because of how most of the people on the team misused His name, and writing it on the SIGN UP SHEET (on Freshmen Orientation), sorry it's just gotten to me that much, and even though he said he didn't mean it in an offense way, but still I forgive him but I just can't seem to forget what had happened on that day, it's just so hard, and I think God showed me that there are people like this in the world and that I should show them or be an open Christian to them, and that really helped because I shouted that "I am a Christian (emphasize Christian), and yeah all of them were cuterous enough letting me cross it out on the sign up sheet for Dragon Boat. And I think that was what I needed to open up to the WHOLE school lol, well I did sort of scream it haha, probably the whole school did hear me. Anyways, yeah God showed me a lot, and I thank Him for giving me that situation, knowing that I will react that way and screaming out that I am a Christian, and for meeting all of you wonderful, down to earth, crazy, fun, caring, loving, open-minded, and many other good characteristics, it's just so awesome, and God is awesome for letting it happen.